Lonely Hearts Club V

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OK here's the deal. I was off work today for Good Friday and did a little cleaning around the house and went to the gym. I have officially passed the weight limits that I was at pre-cancer. While I am pretty sore I have fought my way through the toughest physical test that I will probably ever face. I am very close to being in the best shape of my life and I get better every day. I also have great clarity about my situation and marriage and my ex. I am gradually accepting that this is her screw up and that there is nothing I could have done to prevent it. Feeling good physically is helping me mentally. I am taking a break from my counseling and at this point I feel pretty strong. I have complete awareness of the huge number of very good and caring people in my life and what amazing children I have raised. I thank God for all of the prayers and ask that you all continue to pray for me. The Lord has something amazing in store for me and I have to be patient and wait for his time. I know that there is no issue of being alone and that I will be much more careful and selective in my next wife. Going out to listen to some Blues tonight and hang with some of the special people in my life including my children. There is very little else that I could ask for and I am humbled by it all. Thank you Lord for the recovery that you have helped me to achieve and thank you everyone for caring!