Now what?/ One Day at a Time

[melweb]

HaWho, you are so right. Why LET myself be dragged into it?

Good question indeed. Yet, I DID. Wed convo started with him asking me if I was going to be ok with the separation. Um, No.
Then he launched into the marriage has been bad for years (it started with 10, then 15, now its up to 18), and then he fully immersed himself into a pity party, how hes a depressed, drunk loser--blah blah. I listened and validated for 45 min to an hour. I then had to leave the room. When I come back, I am not even sure what he said, but I lost it, sobbing hysterically. I cannot even tell you what I said, but he finally says "You just made my decision. I am not leaving"

But hang to your hat, cuz H has decided to use his Super MLC Powers to not just jump back on the fence, but ignore it altogether. (What fence? I don't need no stinking fence!)

Yesterday, on our way to the gym (around 4:00) he talks of the future. moving into the city, getting house on the water etc.
After dinner (around 6:00) he is already back pedaling, "there is no guarantee, its risky, not feeling the passion that he needs, wants to be BFFs" I am telling you, he would drive me drink, if I didn't already!!

Today, he is in his room, depressed, and he knows it. Says he is in a funk. We are suppose to have date night but that was planned on Wednesday when he loved me. We shall see. I have decided if he cancels, I am headed to one of those movies I want to see!!