Doing everything wrong...

[PacLove]

Thanks, DR comes in from Amazon today, read the LRT chapter last night in DB.

I picked up exercising last summer - ironically enough around the time I believe the A was first suspected, and she's been encouraging me to continue it. Also cut back on drinking significantly last fall - for her but for me as well.

I changed jobs in the fall slightly less pay but bigger opportunity and longer term growth potential. I was miserable in my last one and I'm sure that contributed to the driving us apart. I think she saw this as a failure on my part...

So many signs have been there the past 6 months of an A but I was in full on denial, finally I decided to find out the truth as I couldn't live in a constant state of anxiety. The truth hurts but also helps.

I struggle with the interactions with my W, her moods are all over the place, some days she comes to bed and wants to chat, other days she sleeps in the couch in isolation. Even this whole moving out bit I think she's unsure about, it's a temporary thing and she's hesitating to even tell our D, saying only she's going on a biz trip. These things give me a little bit of hope that she's not quite ready to give up everything she has.

I'm generally a nice guy, perhaps part of the problem as she's been treating me like a doormat the last year, but I have a really tough time giving up the simple things, like getting her her cup of coffee in the morning.