Kids' father just texted me to let me know that he'd be picking the kids 2 hours earlier than scheduled time ( bear in mind that it's bank holiday here). So I replied that usually it's around the normal time but I understood that he wanted them earlier. Also I have added that I'd like him to appreciate that as he hadn't contacted me about the earlier time i could have had planned something else. I added that in the future I might not be able to accommodate him as easily!
I'm so proud of myself for doing that! I'm struggling with the friend/ moving on line. At time I feel I'm cold but I'm only mirroring what I'm getting from him. He used to say that I was cold to him ( I was because I got pushed away and him still with this AP has knocked down my confidence a lot!), but I'm struggling to be nice and friendly with him not after what he has done!