WW, My Addiction, Patience, and Hope - III

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Not much to update.

Wife is still hell bent on D.

Looked at a condo on Tues - would be nice to be so close to W's house, as it's only a couple blocks away. Kids would have the same bus stop!

Exercise has still been hard, but I'm settling into new job, so I'm hoping a few hours show up in the week, and I can balance better. Part of my addictions group is working on spinning the plates in my life, so that I don't focus just one plate to let the others fall. Exercise is one of those plates.

I love my wife. I have told the kids that. I still want to be married to their mom. However, mom wants something different. I am ok with that, and we both love them all very, very much.

Working on exchanging financials.

My W has been looking at boob jobs and tummy tucks on the computer - that's all I can get, as I don't snoop anymore. New clothes - still working out 6 times a week. She is always looking frazzled, and spends most nights alone in her (our old) bedroom. Some days her texts zing at me, other days she pokes out of the WW fog and talks like the old W. Most days, not.

My mind keeps coming back to MLC. Esp. if W doesn't see OM much. What happens when his D is done? 6 months from now, he's liable to just dump her. Maybe they live happily ever after 3 hours away from each other. Not my circus, not my monkeys anymore, right?

Some days I do great - full of complete detachment. Some days, I miss her and am lonely. Comes with the territory.

Playing tuba for the Easter services. Probably going to hang with some church friends on Easter day when W takes kids to her parent's place. Spiral ham and church potatoes - yum!

Keep on posting - I will!