Still hoping for progress II

[daybyday]

Not much new. Have been very unavailable to W last few days. A couple received texts about silly stuff I didnt even respond back. I dont think I will treat them all this way. It didnt feel right. Maybe I'll wait and respond a bit later than just blow it off all together.

She came over again to get a few things and I just continued with my business. I could tell it bothered her when she was leaving and i stayed sitting in my chair eating and just said bye.

She was kinda cold at kid swap at her apt. today. I stayed outside and waited for S13. She asked me to come in and I said "I'm good". Said bye and left.

I had to call her about some bill payments etc. I was real upbeat and cheery. She was too.

I know she had to wonder what was up with me the last couple days. No mindreading but it's good for me to have her thinking.

No R talk in a couple weeks and thats were I will leave it. Trying hard to GAL and am doing okay. Still have those unexplainable days where you feel the gravity of your sitch. Especially when out doing something that the family used to do together. Seeing other couples etc.

Still miss her like crazy, but...