Thank you for your advice Sandi. She sent an email yesterday asking what I wanted/needed from her. I waited to respond until this morning. But I told her I needed these things. The truth about my current suspensions, and if that is true it has to stop now. Total Transparency - suggested we will talk about this when it is time. For her to tell me the entire truth about the other times. She explained to me that it is difficult to start these hard conversations, she knows I put the ball in her court. So I also told her that she could simply write a letter, something that I read in front of her. I am kicking myself but I told her to take her time and that I am working on my patience right now. But I did so as not to pressure her into another lie, I really hope that she gives full disclosure, but realize that I just cannot trust her right now. I had a good day yesterday not being at her beck-and-call. I will continue that until we start to get resolution. It is so hard because I have always jumped when she said to jump. That doesn't mean that in all situations I was a pushover.
M 21 years XW 43yo, me 41 yo S13 BD March 2016 - she asked me to patient... End of June - I started the D process. D final 2/23/17 "He who forgets will be destined to remember" Eddie Vedder