Hi Vanillia. I think this is a difficult one because anger is an emotion and a response to that emotion
In your case the emotion was felt and ' screaming banshee ' appeared and responded to that emotion. Then the Lady V went into protection mode , you removed H from your life and you are now dealing with a mountain of work , fins and your personal loss of the M ( not H ).
Would anger help here ?? I can t see how it would , the sotch is what it is and needs to be dealt with. Anger might bring temporary relief but I can't see any long term gain. Your feelings re H appear to be level as you have accepted H is who he is and there was never anything that you could do to change that
Sometimes in your posts I feel you accept blame for H and take on responsibility for his actions and even though you realise it wasn't your fault you still can't shift the blame to him. This is understandable though obviously wrong. You loved the man and couldn't ( not wouldn't ) see who he really was We are all guilt of over looking issues that maybe others could clearly see because the emtional connection wasn't there for them
IMHO lack of anger means you are moving forward and are dealing with the pain by letting go. This is a good thing It shows acceptance ,
Just my thoughts Lady V , are you lacking anger for the wrong or right reasons , for me it's the right reasons , I'm sure there is some tiredness and resignation contributing as well but mainly the lack of anger is because of acceptance
Just my thoughts , I'll be looking for others input and your responses
Take care and please remember , your a very valued and important person to a lot of people , in the real world and the Internet world You have nsight and a gentleness that we would all be gifted to have a small percentage of
