atesja

[G8r]

Hi Mutatio. I continue to see many similarities between us. Like yourself, I used (and occasionally still do) have issues with anger management. I don't have the patience to meditate but I suppose I practice mindfulness when I pray and think of the things for which I am grateful. I also have realized that I was angry because it is so much easier to feel than sorrow or sadness.

As I have become more comfortable feeling sadness, sorrow and other negative emotions, the need to manage my anger has diminished. The point I'm trying to make is that I'm working on finding balance feeling and expressing my emotions. Could the pendulum have swung too far towards sadness, regret and penitence with you? I don't think there is anything wrong with feeling those emotions or self reflection which tends to conjure those emotions in situations such as ours. Just that we need balance to grow.

Plants need water to survive but too much rain without any sunshine will stunt their growth and could precipitate their demise.

Btw, I struggle with this. In my teens, I decided stoicism was the way to go because all emotions felt overwhelming. That was an impossible task which is why the anger would explode from time to time. Interestingly, my WW also compared my emotional expression to that meme of a cat showing different emotions. There was no difference for me. One of my180s is to change that image. I want her to see differentiated emotions outside of anger and sadness.

Vaya con dios.