I was angry during the marriage and it was a problem for my wife. I went to anger management counselling and began meditation and practicing mindfulness. These things helped tremendously with my anger. I do not stay angry or let it build like I used to.
I accept that my wife does not love me at this time and may never will again. I accept her genuine struggle. I love her and will wait and see if it changes. I am home to be with my kids as much as possible. If my wife chooses the path of divorce I will relocate in the west. Realistically I will see much less of my kids if this happens so I savor every moment I can get with them. I am very happy spend my free time with my kids, cooking them dinner, even just being under the same roof. My relationship with my son has never been better.
How would anger make things better for me? I have never had good results from a tantrum. Please explain how it would make my life better Vanilla, would it spur another step in evolution? What insight does anger bring to the table?
