Concerning that thought you have about being alone. I have those too, thing about that is yeah maybe we will be alone, maybe not... You do get to a place where it's a touch scary... The unknown, you feel numb and question how the F did I end up here, then you realize it's not all on you, sure you could have been better here and there... You work on those things you can to improve yourself for you... Not to win the WAS back but because you finally start to look more at what you can do to improve and less on the WAS whom you finally realize you have no control over. You get to a point where it's not that you want to be alone, but you need to be alone, time to properly heal, time to become a heathy individual who is able to have a healthy relationship should it present its self, other wise you are doomed to repeat this bad dream you are in.... This is regardless if its with another or your WAS wakes up... This is the time to become strong enough to never allow this to happen again Use this time , it truly is a gift .... I know early on no one wants to hear it but it's the Rock Solid Truth