The begining of the rest of my new life? (3)

[Ripe]

Yes, Mutatio, the ball was in her court and she has just returned it.
This weekend would be my turn to have the kids.
However, since I am going with them to Disneyland the week after, only returning one week later, we agreed she could have the kids most of the time.
I was invited for an official Easter this Sunday and I asked STBXW if I could take the kids with me, since they are also invited (and also her, as my spouse).
She was cold and distant.
She said since she would have the kids for the weekend and since we could not agree on sharing the kids, they would not go with me.
I replied I was not following her, since we had always agreed on all issues related to the kids.
She then said she thought we had been doing things together, like going to the opera and having lunch or going to the cinema, because that was good for the kids. And that since I was uncomfortable with that, we would need to start to be stricter and more rigid.
I just asked her then if I could have the kids during the weekend at least one day, since it is a long weekend.
She agreed.

And, well, she made me understand what was the answer to my invitation to join us for Disneyland: a big No!
Interestingly, I am only partially sad. Of course I would like her to come. This would mean she would be open to reconciliation.
But since I was the one having the initiative, I could not expect any success. She is not ready and might never be.
One thing is certain: I will not get involved in her dramas. She might be upset, but she is not understanding how uncomfortable it was for me to be such a nice friend to her.
I am not her friend, I am, or was, her husband.