I really thank you guys for sharing your experiences with me. As yo all know, I live in a perpetual state of "what's WRONG with me". I think there is something wrong with me when an R ends, or something is wrong with me when I get depressed, or when I take a while to deal with something, like this breakup. I needed this reminder that nothing is WRONG with me. I need to focus on what's RIGHT with me. I am so very lucky that I have friends to help me do that. And maybe that's what shook me a bit through all of this. NG would always say "there is nothing I don't like about you. What more could I ask for?" Probably said that up until almost the end. So when he chose to let me walk away instead of trying ot do his part in making it work, I was left shaking my head. What IS wrong with me? Well, nothing. Except the fact I keep asking myself that question!!! I admittedly cared for him more than the ex. It was on a different level. I'm just babbling here......But yeah, the love and respect completely needs to mutual. And not just words. Actions.
I do remember, BA, you took it hard with Marianne and had a period of hopelessness in finding someone. And you and your wonderful fiancé found eachother and you blended your families together. It will happen one of these days, I know.
Time to gather up my self worth. You guys really did help me that, thank you!
