The frustrating thing is feeling like I am healing and then I am right back in the depression and anxiety. I hear what Sandi says and on the one hand, letting her face the consequences of her decisions is a good thing. On the other, going NC would seem to kill any chances for rebuilding the connection. Sometimes the wall comes downn and we interact in a good way. Hard to know if it is temp checking or genuine. My situation is a little different in that she really is resolved that we are "done". There is no conversation unless we have to talk and she never gives any indication that she cares about me one bit. If I never talked to her again, she seems fine with that.
Hey Flight. That is a lot of mind reading there. Don't go down that path. It's not good for you and doesn't help (I did the same thing).
I felt the same way about my WW. She seemed fine with never talking to me again. I thought she really was 'done' as well. She made it clear, she said it over and over. Now I am not sure. Drop that rope and use the time you have.