I guess I am doing OK. I have come to terms that I cannot change who she is and will have to deal with whatever her choices are. She is happy that we have sold the house and that I a moving up to Toronto and that I want to be friends with her.
I still have dreams that she is with other men and sometimes have trouble sleeping.
Overall I am at about 70% good with myself. I know who I am. I am a good person. I can only do what I can each day. I sometimes feel numb going through the motions of getting the boys off to school and doing things at work but I have been smiling more often.
This is what I find most difficult. Smiling and having fun. I am a laid back person and don't want much other than my kids to be happy and my W.
I guess lately here are the positives.
D is dismissed. I will be friends with my W and separated. Can't control what she will do in the future but I am content with who I am. I am doing everything I can for my boys. Live day by day and enjoy every moment I have with my kids. Make it a point to smile every day and tell myself I am a good person.
H-46 XW-38 T-7 M-6 S-9,8,8,6,4 S 11/30/15, I filed 12/8/15 EA 2/1/16 D dismissed 3/24/16 PA 3/18/16 confirmed 4/22/16 XW files for D 4/1/16 - D final 11/17/16 Finally moving forward...
