Still hoping for progress II

[daybyday]

Yeah Painter. I think it is cake eating too. It feels good when it's happening but when you sink back in to reality it does us no good emotionally to let those things go on. I find I'm worse off than when I just go limited contact. It is sad, but my W has rarely gone a day without a text or some kind of contact. Heck, she texted again last night about a friend of son who was spending night with her and him. Said how annoying he was. I didnt respond.

I cant be her emotional safety blanket anymore. Her choosing. It saddens me and I hate it to know end but I have to think about me and moving on. I will be here if she decides to work on M but she doesnt need to know that.

It is such a shame that so many take M so lightly and just bail when they get bored or see what they think is greener grass.

I take responsibility for my part in this whole sitch but I am willing to work until the ends of the earth to fix it. My W is not at this time. So....I will give her her space. But you cant have space, and still have me as H.