It has been a while since I've posted. A student in my S's year group committed suicide last week so you can imagine the perspective that put on my problems. The tragedy coupled with reading up on mindfulness has helped me to keep trying to live in the present the best I can. Not relive past pain and stress or prelive an imaginary unpleasant future which may never become reality. The only contact I've had with W has been via text or email to discuss S's educational future. There were meetings at the school but I went on a different day to her. My parents are visiting for a few days but W asked S if he wanted to go with her for a couple of days to visit her parents. He said no as he wants to stay at home and be with his friends. W keeps try to arrange things to do with S but he refuses most of them. The NC continues I answer some but not all messages. As we go into the six month I imagine the chances of her leaving her OM are minimal given her level of obsession and self deception but I can only continue on my path and enjoy each day the best I can. Of course I miss her but I realise that only I can make myself happy.
