I like your title. It reminds me of the joke where you bring a few nuts and bolts with you when you ride a roller coaster, then right when you're at the top and about to go over the hill you show them to the guy in the seat in front of you and say "whoa dude, these just came off your seat!!!"
Anyway, just wanted to check in. You're doing good. It takes a while to drop the rope, you don't have to feel stupid that you continue to hold it. Just keep breathing and posting and it will all be ok.
Me:38 XW:38 T:11 years M:8 years Kids: S14, D11, D7 BD/Move out day: 6/17/14, D final Dec 15