Sorry to hear about the news, but still glad you came back to post regardless. I felt the exact same way... Thinking ok I gave people some hope in this cruddy situation when W came back, but like you probably felt something seemed just off, the longer it went the more I felt that she wasn't done until it finally happened, for me seemed Mar-Jun15 were testing water phase, Jun-Aug working on things.. Sep-Dec cycling and checking out till finally Feb I discovered she ran back in the hole
As kml says, there was a huge relief just knowing I've done all I could. I did the work, I became better... I controlled the one thing I could... Me. Honestly I would have worked on the M till my hands bled, I would have done anything... And it would never have been enough she was never all in and I deserve a person all in after all I've done. I am at peace with my efforts, this is on them and I still pray for them, maybe one day they wake up, do the work and find some peace while sitting at ground zero of all the destruction caused by this, maybe they never wake, it's a tragedy regardless. I refuse to be defined by this, I just happened to be in the car crash is all.
Sorry again but you did it all so well and have many ... Myself included some serious tips on how to navigate these waters and land on shore a much improved person
