Text from WW today about whether S is wrestling this weekend or not. I responded that when I originally sent her the list I did not figure in Easter and we would not be wrestling so he could enjoy his holiday. I also asked if it would be ok to take S13 and S16 to see a movie Friday or Saturday and possibly do their Easter Egg treasure hunt Saturday for them. I got a cold "I'll let you know after I firm up my weekend plans." reply.
Mind reading.... the reply means "I am not going to say no now so you can't say anything. My intention is to avoid until its too late and then blame it on you."
Again it is about the kids and WW needs to be selfish about it as usual. On other threads I have posed the question "How can you take them back, when you know this person is inside them?" I don't know whether I ever could, yes through work they can change just as I am changing, but in the back of my mind I think WW I am learning to despise will always be in there scratching to get out.
In fact, I look at her history of choices and maybe WW has always been there and when W was with me she was someone else. Well one way or the other, I am becoming a better me. I started working out twice a day my lunch hour and then when I get home. I am working to change my routine to accommodate that figuring M,W and F will be upper body and T and H will be lower. Jogging and two sessions of leg lifting on those days (I really have chicken legs). One session of lifting on M, W, and F but exercise with the kids and wrestle with the coaches on those days.
As far as the running partner, I see no reason not too. It is a step forward for me and a means of true detachment... who knows maybe spending time with a woman will just pry my hands off that rope all together. Maybe I will decide I do not want WW back in my life... I mean the more I look back on it I spent more time in our marriage walking on eggshells with WW than I did enjoying myself. Maybe I am the one who should have been filled with resentment? Maybe it is better for me that I am not with her and who knows as time goes on maybe she will relax and allow me to see kids more?
Me 41 W 33 M 2013 Suspect A 11/15 Confirm A 1/16 She moved out 2/14/16 Stepson 13 Stepson 16
