Hi G , I think you accepting that your in a chesseless tunnel is a big step forward and as for dealing with it worse than others , maybe but maybe your more honest.
I was happily surprised at your weight loss as it shows you can decide to do something and follow it through It is your stich so obviously you have to live it day by day BUT your is far from bad in regard to how your W is treating you
As regards to your looks and other future partners. Any genuine lady will be attracted to you and not just your looks G , I'm not an attractive man but I have no problem meeting ladies and trust me it's not based on my looks !!!!!
As for you self image problems downstairs , least of your worries mate , When you get that far in an R , the person in question won't be carrying a ruler !!
Your right about no chance of a R with W right now , she's not interested because she's going to be so much happier on her own ---- THIS IS HOWS SHE FEELS RIGHT NOW ---- Feelings change G but for now accept this is how W is thinking and everything else is an obstacle stoping her getting there
Stay strong G , you are turning a corner , just don't stop as your half way round it
