Ghost Busting - Time to accept what is happening

[ATPeace]

RD I am sounding like a flipping broken record going over the same [censored] over and over again.

why is it that I feel that I am copying with this worse than other people in the same position ..I guess it is because this is my sitch and it is happening to me on my sitch.

I have so little body confidence and I really think so very little about myself right now

I need to get out and love myself I do not want to meet anyone else how can I put anone else above my children I guess in time this may happen but I guess in my mind I just think that other women will be repulsed by me and my weight and how my body looks even if I loose weight which I am doing I fear that I will end up with stretch marks and lots of saggy skin. I am scared that I am unlovable and undesirable,

Ok so all the cards going down on the table I am also not body confident when It comes to the size of my manhood so the leaves me worried about forming a new relationship

I have only,ever had the one partner so I am very shy and inexperienced

Possibly too much information

Just need to vent cannot sleep