I am content, that is a blessing.......

[mleigh4]

Thanks Job. I do want to make sure my son learns how to acknowledge good deeds. It will be interesting to see if I can make a difference with them by pointing things out. It's a little "cheesy" at the time, but worth it I believe.

I am starting to wonder if I am having a little depression dip. I know I have not been feeling well, and my 46 year old hormones feel a little whacky, but I am second guessing it's just that. I am just craving solitude lately, over a couple of weeks now, feeling a bit down and totally exhausted...we will see if that changes once I feel better.

Dropped off S with H tonight. They went in the house, and I stayed parked to talk to my friend who I was meeting up with for a quick glass of wine. As I was finishing up the call, H came back out to my truck. I opened up my door and he said he wanted to show me some pics. They were of S, using a weed whacker in his field of weeds, with FIL watching in the background. I thought, oh joy, what fun! I am sure they ganged up on him to do it, but I just laughed and said it would take a month to make a dent in these weeds with that! He said, he just wanted to do that area, in other areas he sprayed some weed killer that is supposed to last a year....

Ugh, a R talk was on the TIP of my tongue! I held back, but asked him, do you plan on buying this place?? He looked shocked, said no, it's not for sale! Mr. Logical answer. It just got quiet. I shut my mouth, H said nothing...but I swear guys, I think he wanted to say something? Or wanted me to say something? I don't know, it was just a long silence with both of us looking far off in the distance...I just wondered, why come back out to show me those pictures? I felt like it was for another reason....

I waited, then finally said, ok, well, have a good night. And left.