Way Too Late Pt 3

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So, I get to the market. I go to a different one now - it's closer, not as upscale which is funny because it's actually more expensive, bigger and not as much stuff.I go there mostly because it's different (change patterns, familiar places), and I won't bump into the W.

For some reason I have these emotional washes when I go there - I don't know why. Nothing there reminds me of the W - but just like when I started sobbing at the checkout line when I saw the greeting cards.

So, I bump into the W of a couple and our original next door neighbors here. They moved about 3-1/2 years ago. We start with the "hi!" everything's great, life is good - well - I guess you didn't hear?

I don't go into detail anymore - I don't want to scare these poor people off unless they ask. So, I just said she lawyered up, and there's somebody else. I said it was a surprise (the WW says it wasn't) but I got the ILYBINILWY, and then 2 months later when I thought we stood a fighting chance in counseling she files having never planned on anything else. So yeah, surprise. Dummy.

I told her in hindsight it was obvious, and I was ignoring the signs. I could have done something - maybe even turned it around. But I screwed up. I was a jerk, I thought we were married, and I made a LOT of mistakes. She no longer cared if I was rectifying or not.

The neighbor was stunned - we were one of those couples that people thought worked together so well. Funny how the W used that against me and said how she felt other couples worked together so well when she's dealing with them in real estate. If she really feels that way, I'm sorry and sad. But, I can't believe anything she says.

Interesting - the neighbor told me this. "That's weird, because I knew something wasn't right. I texted her 2 weeks ago asking if she knew of any rentals, or could find out for me She never answered back".

The W not answering back is weird, and that's not in her character at all. It's just as easy to say "don't know of anything, I'll let you know if I hear". They used to text frequently.

Anyway, we had as nice a talk as possible when I'm describing what my living situation is - the W having a huge house all to herself and answering any other questions she had if I knew. She said her H would be devastated (yeah, join the club!) and we said goodbye. She says she's there every day at the same time - and to keep in touch. Too bad I forgot to get her latest contact info - I usually counted on the W for that stuff.

Seems like the W is dropping the ball on friends and business. I guess that's not unusual though. I wonder though about her mental state. I saw she's seeing a psychologist friend of ours (the last time I saw her shared calendar before I turned it off a few weeks ago) so I hope she's continuing.