I'm so sorry. Find a pillow and beat the stuffings out of it. That will help w/some of that hurt and anger. Feels those emotions and then release them. You are not alone. Pick up the phone and call a friend or text a friend. They will be glad to hear from you.

Please pamper yourself this evening and take a nice, long, hot bubble bath. Trust me, it will help you.

Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to.
The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.