This is it as life goes on

[shotgun]

Hold on tight Rouky. There is no explanation for this. Some people just get terribly self centered and narcissistic. There is nothing that you have done to deserve this and there is nothing you could have done differently to prevent it all. Take the day to cry and forgive yourself for having done it. Sometimes it is the only option and there is no shame in it. I rarely cry over my ex now but I do still get incredibly sad. Tomorrow will be better though and we will recover. Please call when you are up to it.