Now I'm going to sound daft, but is it a phone number Shotgun? :-)
Funny day at work got awarded a medal by my students for bring the best teacher. I loved it, and now just had a cry because of STBXH.
I can't do it, I'm really struggling with this whole situation. How can he come see his kids in his own house, then happily go back to OW's house? How can he not see the pain I'm in? How can he be happy? It's his second relationship that he walked away from!
What I have done to deserve this? My head knows far too well that it's over, so why can't my heart feel it too? I'm so scared of the future and yet I'm less on the edge when the kids' father isn't there! I carry on with my day to day life. So I know I can live on my own and don't need him.
I'm so scared of being unlovable, not good for relationship. I'm not even sure I'm a good role model for my kids. It's been a year now, so why am I crying? Why do I feel so worthless! What have I done to deserve this? Is it pay back fine from a previous life? I know I'm backsliding but I don't why I'm in such a state!
