Hi just thought I would post an update

Still not much has changed in my sitch I am however getting closer and closer to acceptance. How will I know when I am there I guess will go along with her wishes To sell the house I know when this happens she will file for divorce

I seem to cycle less there really is nothing that i can do to stop her from taking this path. She has absolutely no desire to work on repairing anything.

I am resigned to what is going to happen I do not like it and do not want it but I can see that there can be no growth while still living together neither of us can move forwards.

My Wife told me that all she ever wanted was for me to do my share arround the house spend quality time with the children, she knows I am prepared to do anything to do whatever it would take to save this repair this make things better but she completely refuses to even consider this as an option.

Over the past 10 months I have told her so many times how sorry I am I have changed how much time I spend with the children i do much more arround the house I am everything I should have been during our marrage but it is all too late for her.

I have been working in myself joined a gym ....quit the gym and decided a that three times a week with a personal trainer is for the the way forwards

I have been training for a month at the start he took my measurements and I really was not sure if I had changed much well I am shrinking

Two inches off my chest
Three inches off my waist
One inch off my thigh
1/2 inch off my kneck

And all this I know I could have done more than that I could have worked harder so this month I am looking to do at least the same if not more than this

I have signed up for six months initially and if I can repeat the above then there is going to be some massive changed to the way I look

I am feeling better about myself and I know I will be alright at the end

The life I have and the life that I will have will be very different but I will be fine.

The help from here has been incredible and without it I would not be here

Thank you all

Much love

Ghost


Me:48 W 41
M:18 T:26
2 D 18 & 4
2 S 17 & 13
Bomb: 20/7/2015 in house separation
D filed 06/17
Separate houses 10/17
D Final 29/12//17.