PP's New Solo Adventure (11)

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True story: Last night I actually had a dream that we were getting remarried. The last time this happened my IC, who is a Jungian Analyst, got all excited as he said it was a powerful dream.

Not to butt in - but I've been hating dreams with my W, my subconscious realizes my sitch and I suddenly pop up wide awake knowing it's not real.

Last week I had a dream where I was sitting watching a movie and the W comes in and sits next to me, holds my hand and puts her head on my shoulder and says "I'm sorry". I was all "wow, maybe we can..." and then I bolted awake.

Later the next morning (I was up all night after that) the L calls me saying the W's L called - saying that the W said she wanted to stop the D. Had I been talking with her? Are we going to reconcile? I had no idea what my L was talking about. The L asked me to reach out and see what was going on. I said I would - and then thought better of it and did nothing. I hadn't seen that early that morning the W had texted me saying "I told my L to stop the D".

I excitedly logged on here, almost doing somersaults. But I knew I shouldn't allow myself to get that way. And everybody else here did too.

So, about 9 hours after being texted (and only a couple of hours after I saw the text, really) I texted back "what do you mean by this" and to please email, not text as I rarely catch text messages (not a phone person).

almost 24 hours later, she emails me saying she meant something totally different than "stop the divorce" and was more giving me a lecture on how her lawyering up and demanding everything was an "us" thing, the lawyers were protracting things for their own benefit, and we were better than to have these disagreements. She then suggested a friend as a mediator.



I never answered back. Combination of heartbroken and ticked off. 3 days later we had our first court date and she was doubling down on demands and backing out of promises. She sure forgot that email pretty darned fast.

Stupid dreams.