Ugh.. Her and holidays. Thursday she texted me at work and asked what we should do for Easter as we usually go to my parents. I said idk let me think about it asked if she had any ideas. She then texted back how she wanted kids split for which holidays with no suggestion for what to do for Easter. I didn't reply.
I think she's trying to get me upset. She's been really stressed the last couple days and trying to get me to be defensive.
Friday she was acting really strange, if I made eye contact she would raise her eyebrows then say "what?" Or bite her lips. She also seemed really depressed. She said she had an appt after I got home from work and she would be back soon with dinner. I got a text later that she wouldn't be back until later and asked me to take care of dinner but to tell the kids she would bring desert before bed. Well she came home at 9 the next morning.
I'm glad I got desert when we were out so the kids weren't too let down about that. They didn't say much, sadly i think they're starting to see it as par for her now but are too young to see what's going on. I held them both for a while and we stayed up a little late and watched some tv before bed. It's so frustrating how insensitive she can be to them. There are other times she's great but it seems to be less and less.
Yesterday morning I woke up really early with a terrible dream about w and couldn't go back to sleep so I got up. W's car wasn't in the garage and the kids had play dates she arranged, one coming to our house, and kids tell me they're at the same time. I cleaned, made breakfast, and texted so I could drop s off a little early and make it back home for d's friend came over. I got a call from an unknown number and it was w. She sounded upset and told me she went to have a couple drinks with her bosses (h&w) and blacked out and they took her to their house (wow, a text might have been nice! What kind of people are they? They know she has kids at home and I suspect OM. Her attitude has changed since she started working for them. In their defense who knows what she has told them. If this is even what happened). She said she didn't remember leaving the bar and it's never happened to her before and kept apologizing but I didn't say hardly anything. Interestingly she said "I feel like I'm 18" (she doesn't seem to be hung over either, weird).
She got home when I was leaving and then got an attitude with me for taking the kids to drop s off. When I got home I took a note I left in case d's friend showed up off the door. W snipped asking me what it was, she must have thought it was for her.
Her eyes were not right, Its hard to describe it, they seemed a little off from each other. Not to mention more dead than normal shark eyes.
Last night w stood in the hall and talked to me while I did laundry in my room. Then she said I guess I will go to step inlaws and you can take the kids to your parents' for Easter.
Idk what to do, I don't want to do that to the kids and I don't want to be asked where she is all weekend. I also think she will go to step inlaws and make me out to be a jackass. I wonder if this is where she would really go anyway. She didn't seem to concerned about the kids:( I thought about asking step mil if w was going but i don't want to put her in the middle of the sitch, I don't want a pity invite (w made it clear I was not invited but I know it's just her, step mil would never do that to me and even invited me up on my own last time we talked) and to drag our baggage there. I think I am going to stay in town with the kids and have our own little Easter. I feel bad but I can't deal with my family and this right now.
I hope I'm doing the right thing standing. I know something is seriously wrong with w but I sure don't want my kids to think it is okay to be treated like I am or to treat someone how w does to me. On the other hand, one day they will know I did everything I could for w and our family.
I don't know if I handled her latest out all night okay. I just took care of what needed done yesterday and didn't say hardly anything to her. This is completely unacceptable, it was hard to keep quiet. Now she's acting as if it were me out all night.
