I like to be fair, and it is unfair to him that I will be a better person for someone else instead of him.
I have felt and am still feeling everything that you have described. I am doing mental ticks as I read your posts. Except for this.
For me, I can't stand when it's unfair. And I think it's unfair when/if xh changes for the better and TP gets the benefits. Hey, I was there first and I had to go through cr@p for xh version beta 1.1.
See, that's where you're a better person.
(((Julie)))
It is tough and it is painful. But I promise you, it will get better. I was obsessed with the TP and xh last year and they occupied every waking and perhaps even the non-waking moments. I missed xh so much I really thought I would die from a broken heart.
Now, I would be lying if I say I never think about xh. But only during small pockets of time. When I am so busy, pee/ lunch breaks are really just meant for these purposes. And my heart is stronger and she tells me she's not going to give up on me anything soon. Good to know that.
Julie, you are a wiser, calmer woman than me. If I can do it, so can you.
You can call me Dory/ Grl.
As a wise fish once sang,"Just keep swimming!"
It's no use to go back to yesterday because I was a different person then.
