I am content, that is a blessing.......

[mleigh4]

Hi Job, thank you for the reminder to begin a new thread. I am very much enjoying my weekend, I hope you are too. I had a busy morning doing some things around the house, but ready now to couch it for the rest of the night. I am invited to a dinner party tonight, but my body says no, it needs rest. Tomorrow morning I need to go into work to finish closing up a project file, then run some errands before picking up S. So now is the time to rest.

Irish, funny how the MIL's don't seem to realize their part in their children's depression. Or, could it be they just can't face it? That is my belief with my MIL, and my fear that H is the same in relation to his own issues. I really worry he will not be able to really look inside, but time will tell.

H came to pick up S today. We have not spoken since the missed counseling appt. He started by sending a pic of the traffic on the freeway, which had him stressed out. I replied to take the back roads with the locals, that it is a few minutes longer, but stress free. He replied, knowing he has to deal with driving 40 mph and stop signs stresses him out. Lol, I can't win. When he got here, he made a remark to me that I used to get stressed out when I used to commute and don't act like it's no big deal. He didn't say it mean, he said it jokingly. I looked at him surprised and assured him I didn't mean it to sound that way, only that I hate the freeway and take back roads whenever I can. He said, oh, ok.

Sensitive much?

Anyway, he sealed up the window for me, double checked the smoke alarms I told him I checked at the time change, fixed the sensor lights in the front, and hooked me up a digital antenna I mentioned I wanted to see if I can get local channels. He was very helpful. We chatted while he was sealing the window, I asked him about work, I realized I really miss these times....

I told him how my county manager, who I have worked with for 20 years, just got promoted to manage the state of Hawaii, and she told me an EO position is waiting for me. H immediately said, you can't move to Hawaii. I said no, not right now, but it's definitely something I would be open to once S finished school! Aloha!!

We also talked taxes. I input almost everything, and thank goodness H was true to his word, and adjusted his withholding, and it is looking like we will break very close to even. I also felt the need to respond to his remark a few weeks ago, about me not wanting to pay money due on taxes, but enjoying the huge refunds thanks to him. I said, I just want to remind you that at one time, I was making loads of money (when the rates first dropped, early 2000's), and I showered you with trips to Cancun, Vegas, NASCAR races, and I never once pointed out who's money paid for it. He asked when he did that. I told him what he said. He said, I said that? I said yes. He said, sorry, I don't remember and don't feel that way. (Something like that)

So, I felt better. For some reason, it just irks me, the blown up head he has gotten with his new position. But I need to let that go. This is what he needs to feel good about himself right now, since having a family didn't do that for him. His loss.

I saw a quote the other day....I am content, that is a blessing greater than riches; and he to whom that is given need ask no more.

So overall, I enjoyed H company today and was glad to have him here a bit fixing things up.

Oh, his birthday is in two weeks. He is leaving the day before for his business trip. Which, by the way, he used our joint credit card to get his plane tickets, so I can see it?? But, I can see it is to MN and not Cancun or something, so it must really be business and not a romantic rendezvous. So, he said he was planning on dinner the weekend before he goes with his dad (they share the same Bday) and S. I said absolutely! Then he said some friends want to take him out, but he has S that night, would I be open to take S? I told him sure. He then quickly said but I'm not sure I even want to do that, but just in case. Ok. I have not offered anything for his Bday. I don't really see a point. Although, he was very nice to me on mine last year, brought me flowers and wine, I am a little stumped about what to do.

Hope all are well