Stepping in a Different Direction

[Pax_luv]

Hello!
Journaling-
Fortunately, I was able to take myself off the gravitron ride that had me spinning before and after h's birthday on Monday which meant dog swap yesterday was easy peasy. I felt totally neutral.

We chatted for a bit, rather, I should say he did all the chatting. He was sharing all the stuff that is going on in his life... Pulled out his calendar to show me how busy he was and how he spends his days. I just stood and listened with a pleasant look on my face. It was the perfect opportunity to validate and be supportive and chipper.... But you know what? I didn't want to... Nope.... Just didn't.

He did make a comment about how competitive his new career is. He made it a point to tell me that him and his friend (who he made it a point to tell is a girl) went for a role in the same project and he got a part and she didn't.... And it's competitive because the industry is underhanded and people never share when auditions are, etc. I have no idea why he was sharing this, but I instinctively contorted my face in a cringe when he told me this and he asked, "why the face?" I realized that I had a reaction and just said, uch that's just ugly. Then he made it a point to tell me how he isn't competitive, but others are.

I realized that I made the face because I've done so much work on myself and I only surround myself with positive, uplifting things and people. The thought of being in an underhanded competitive environment is just so unappealing!

Anyway... Weird interaction. Yes, I spent some time wondering what it meant and what were the hidden messages, but of course that serves no purpose whatsoever... So I let it be!

Hope everyone has a great weekend!