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[ciluzen]

All I can do is live my life with the people that choose to be in it. Maybe this is what giving up feels like.

Hi, Mu. I read your posts often, but I guess as a lurker. This struck me as so simply beautiful. Maybe because I have been fighting with myself over whether to burn certain bridges.
There has been almost total radio silence from the people I once thought of as friends during this crisis. They've been civil when I've reached out, but I've stopped and there is nothing.The newer friends have shown me they care, reaching out to me and wanting to be with me.
In regards to my H, I'm not ready to let go completely...I'm leaving the door cracked as our D is full steam ahead and we see each other often while working to prepare our house for sale. I wonder if he will miss me when its all done and there is no reason to contact each other? I'll cross that bridge when I come to it...we will always have our children in common, so it can never be burnt.
You're simple line, "All I can do is live my life with the people that choose to be in it" really made me realize how much I need to let those who have shown that they have chosen not to be in my life need to be let go. All I have to do is stop wasting my breath and thoughts on them. They are just a part of my past now. Thank you.