Still hoping for progress II

[daybyday]

Only near a week into this S and I've come to realize a few things already. I really miss my W. There a lot a chores around this house that I took for granted that W did. It would so be easier with two. I did more dishes and laundry than most H according to WAW. But there is so much more. Changing sheets, cleaning b-rooms. To me that is still not an "off the hook for bailing" reason though. If she would have ask directly for help, ii would have gave. I know this isnt the reason she left but i bet it didnt help. I believe God has many lessons for me to learn through this process whether I get the chance to R or not.

I forced myself to the gym after work and was scrolling my ipod for songs. I couldnt find any that didnt remind me of W. Finally settle on one of my faves by the Clash. Stand By Me. OMG! Listen to the lyrics if you get a chance. Had me in tears it hit so close to home. I hope I can make it to the end of this rollercoaster ride because right now I just want off.