I swear there some sparkling somewhere...(4)

[HopeRB]

But what if you need to find out things from H? How do you not break NC?!

[HopeRB]

Please hang in there Spark. Know that we're in this together and the longer we are NC, the stronger it makes us, the more in control we are and the closer we are to succeeding - one way or the other. I'm saying this to myself as I type this too. But as mentioned, trying to navigate the NC but need to contact b/c of important things situations myself. At least you don't have to deal with that...or do you.

[Sparkls]

There will be at least one more contact for him to get the rest of his things.

[Sparkls]

And I have the logins, but some of the utilities and the Internet are in his name

[HopeRB]

Thats the problem. And I asked my H and he didnt give them. Like, he says he's going to do stuff and doesnt so I have to follow up b/c he doesn't. Thus messing up my NC. But you are still so early. Keep strong.

[NYGal]

Maybe they don't do this stuff so we WILL contact them. My W has been holding on to my mail for two months! And I haven't changed the mailing address on anything because I'm holding on, too...

[Sparkls]

I think my H is just too lazy and immature. He's not thinking about anything logical it seems

Or I'm projecting and he's secretly got all of his [censored] together

[daybyday]

I doubt that he has all his shik together. Who does? Especially not someone who is living in the fog.

[GWH]

Or I'm projecting and he's secretly got all of his [censored] together

I very much doubt that Sparkls.

[Sparkls]

Well in prep for Match day tomorrow, I went out with my class and got a wee bit drunk.
It was fun. Apparently my sob story is going around the class and I got a lot of sympathy from friends and strangers alike.

I just feel like it's over at this point.
I love him. I want him to come home. But for whatever his reasons, that's not what he's doing.

I did have a friends' brother flirting with me heavily all evening. Very nice to have someone tell me I'm pretty awesome. Since I don't feel all that awesome lately.

I guess the one positive is I don't feel shame about this. He f*cked up. It's not a reflection of me.
But damn if I don't want to not go to bed alone tonight...