Back on these forums again 7

[Painter]

I wish so much that my M would have lasted. I will never get to the point where I no longer wish for that. But I did not realize how unhappy I have been for so many years now that i wake up happy, spend the day pretty happy and fall asleep happy almost every night.

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But to be honest, God has a wicked sense of humor and I really have no idea what She has in store for me next

I hope to be where you are soon. I know I have so much happiness and creativity inside me, but the rejection and disapproval I face every day from H is crushing my spirit. I spent 4 months away a while back and it was like I found myself again.

I wish I could figure out why we are so bad for each other and fix it, but I have to face the fact that I can't.

And I love your last remark!