Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
Your boys are playing sport, thats a great thing, not only for them but for you too, it gives you an opportunity to become involved too. This leads to social connections as well. Become a time keeper or scorer, or some other helper!
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