I can only hope my sitch ends the same as hers....
M:26 H:32 T:8yrs ILYBNILWY/ "I'm not happy": 2/6/16 D-Day-discovered PA/EA: 2/10/16 Separated: 2/14/16 He's living with OW I moved to different state: 06/16 Currently: Trying to move forward
Working on it. Hard to slow down when my life is about to start snow-balling into huge changes.
I wish if he was going to do this regardless, he had done this a year ago so we could've had time to work things out before such huge changes were happening.
Not like breaking NC would actually probably get me a response, he seems to want to shut me out completely.
M:26 H:32 T:8yrs ILYBNILWY/ "I'm not happy": 2/6/16 D-Day-discovered PA/EA: 2/10/16 Separated: 2/14/16 He's living with OW I moved to different state: 06/16 Currently: Trying to move forward
One day at a time. Trying to remain optimistic even when it looks bleak. Hoping the process does work.
M:26 H:32 T:8yrs ILYBNILWY/ "I'm not happy": 2/6/16 D-Day-discovered PA/EA: 2/10/16 Separated: 2/14/16 He's living with OW I moved to different state: 06/16 Currently: Trying to move forward
Journaling: Today's been a struggle. Had really vivid dreams about H and my brain keeps going back to d-day. We had a really long conversation that day and talked about the future and what we wanted and by the end of it, he was talking about "our" hypothetical kids and "our" future. I was really weary of what he was saying but I'd be lying if it didn't think there was a good chance he was going to stay. Then he talked to OW and it was a light switch. It became I never loved you, never wanted this etc and it's been that since. I think I saw a glimpse of my real guy on d-day. And I'm struggling with how to get him back, if it's possible and how to keep up hope that who he is now isn't his forever. It's hard to not believe him 100% when he's telling his friends it'll never work between us and he's moving 2000 miles away and defriended on the game we play together (first time in the entire 8 years I've known him that I've ever seen him defriend someone and that person is me...)
Is it hopeless? Am I really never going to see him again?
M:26 H:32 T:8yrs ILYBNILWY/ "I'm not happy": 2/6/16 D-Day-discovered PA/EA: 2/10/16 Separated: 2/14/16 He's living with OW I moved to different state: 06/16 Currently: Trying to move forward
It's like an alien has overtaken their body and mind.
It's never hopeless. I wonder if I'll ever hear from W again. Going on 7 weeks of NC now.
But we have no control over them, only ourselves. We just have to let time do it's thing.
I know it hurts, I hurt too.
I remember my W telling me she loved me with all her heart and sending me kissy face emoticons all the time. 2 Weeks later I got the ILYBNILWY talk. How is that even possible????
