Mustardseed- It is okay, I know people work and I check this a few times a day because I am a SAHM and have nothing else to do at the moment.
Yeah, I see what you are saying. My H HAS done the same a few times. He acts so SWEET, loving, motivational, and then later the same thing he is motivating me on, he is being a complete D-bag about.
I won't tell him, I won't lie, I just will be..vague if asked.
I really feel like once I have a FULL time job, I would be more ready to file on my own. I'm scared, very scared to be alone. I know it is coming, and that I am already alone, but well you know what I mean.
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And right now, when it comes to interacting with H and dealing with aspects of my sitch I am starting to look at them as waves. I know they are coming. I don't always know which waves can carry me to shore and which I need to avoid. But I have learned to enjoy the moment and keep watch. And I am getting better at gauging.
This moment with your job, this is a wave worth catching and riding out. When he finds out it will be another wave. But you know it is coming. You might not quite know what kind of wave it is, so it is best of you prepare to just let it pass over you.
I think that metaphor and how you explained it was BEAUTIFUL. I'm actually afraid of waves and avoid going past my knees in the ocean.The unknown, the deep water, the waves terrify me. Maybe I need to learn to get over my fears that keep me close to shore(and my H).
He does know they may use me as a SUB sometimes and also that I am class mom so I am at the school A lot, so if he wants S3 sometime and I'm at work, well he can come pick them up. Say I'm subbing. He doesn't need to know it's M-F every week.
