NYGal: What now?

[NYGal]

Update: Sunday text from W: I am so sorry.
Me 5 hours later: Want to talk? Her: Can we have coffee this week? Me: I have a big interview tomorrow. How about Tuesday or Wed? Then on Monday, her: Will you be available this evening to talk?
Me: What do you want to talk about?
W: Maybe it's not such a good idea to talk. I have no real topic.
Me:OK, Want to just stare off into space? (smiley face)
W: Seriously (red cheeked smiley)

So I called W yesterday and left a message about having lunch or a hike. She texted back, basically that she's really busy at work now.
I did not respond.

Today she called me. She did most of the talking: I know we've both been wanting to talk and we should do that. I don't know where you are since about a month ago (when I told her to leave me alone and then a mutual friend called and told her I was really upset and at the doctor's... ugh). (I'm pretty sure she was wondering what I'm feeling vis a vis her/us, but I didn't say anything.) She said she has been doing a lot of yard work and enjoying it, and felt proud of herself for figuring out how to turn on the water so she could water everything. (She just kept talking and I didn't want to interrupt her so I couldn't really validate.) She said it made her remember again how much I did for us. I just said, yeah. Said she appreciates me so much more now... and hopes I feel the same about her. I said, yes, I've been doing a lot of work. She mentioned again how busy she is with work right now, and doing some traveling for work. She's emceeing a big event tonight and said she's nervous about it, because it's "a big deal". I said I wish I could be there. W: I know, you would always be there to support me. (Dang, I was hoping for an invitation. It's a fun event!!) She asked if I sent the coffee cup pic to her by mistake last week, and I said no, that I was sending her coffee in bed because I knew she was out of town --(said with a smile. btw t's what I would always do when we went to these events). (BTW I know NOT from spying -- it's something she goes to every year, and I would often accompany her.) (Again, I think she was trying to temp check me.) Some small talk, then again at the end: we really should talk, not now. Me: yeah, I have to get to work. I said take care or something, and she said: "ILY too."
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