Ghost Busting - Time to accept what is happening

[ATPeace]

Well the days and the weeks go by and I still am no closer to moving out

I still spin and even tho I realise she will go through this I fight it I am still scared of being alone and not seeing my children everyday

I today tried putting myself in her shoes and tried to see it from her view
We are at very diffentent places

She really does not want very much to do with me
She does not want to spend time with me
She does not want to work in a relationship
She wants out
She wants to move on with her life
She probably feels trapped
She probably feels angry
She,probably feels bitter
She probably is unable to trust me
She does not believe my words
She no longer loves me

Have I missed anything

So the reality is i Cannot fix her and I have no control over this

She will do what she will do I know right now she is zero percent interested in making anything better and her better is separate Houses and divorced.

I do not want to be the one to instruct solicitors and I will probably regret not doing this once she has filed but in a strange way I still hope to be able to turn this around

While I am in house separation with her I can show her my changes tho they mean nothing to her and I really do not know how I can in affect change her mind.....I cannot she would have to want to do that

So.i have to get used to the idea of her being intermit with another man I have only ever been with her and she with me I know I have said that about a million times.

I have get used to seeing my kids less of the time

Perhaps my W meeting someone and them bringing up my children ....I hate this idea I am meant to be the dad not some other random stranger.

I have to get used to living without my partner of 25 years ...how the heck do I do this ?

I know I am not the first person to be in this position and I will not be the last