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[Mona52]

Karaoke tonight
I go with S12 and D15.
My S loves it! It is at a bar, but it is family night so there are kids everywhere. My S sings Kryptonite and all the younger girls follow him around. It is weird because as soon as I walk into the bar, a swarm of kids all run up to me and hug me. I dont even know these kids, but they hang around me and S all night.

They told me at the bar that before i came, no one ever danced, now we dance all night. I think the kids swarm me because I dance with them. All I know is that we have so much fun. My D15 goes but she does not like karaoke, so she just kinda sits there. But she does not sulk. She is happy to be there because she knows it makes me happy that she come with me.

D17 is not invited anymore. I am sick and tired of watching her sulk and wine because she does not like it so I leave her at home.

Chris works on Wednesday's so he never comes with me

However... Brian (the guy I dance with on Fridays) has been threatening to come. I like going out places with Brian because he has this way of giving me 100% of his attention. Even when he sits beside me he makes sure he is close enough our legs and arms are touching. It is nothing inappropriate, it is just nice that he is so confident and present the whole time.

My girlfriend Diane has come a few times and may come tonight.

I have also been there enough that I know a bunch of the regulars. And they are even starting to get up and dance and talk to me.

Then there is Tom and Al. They are in their 80's and they always put their name on my dance card.

The truth be told, the people who come are not pretty or glamorous. They sing terribly. They dance horribly. They wear jeans and ripped t-shirts when they dress up. Most are way older than me, or way younger than me. The food is bad. I am probably the only non-smoker in the room. There is zero chance the people there have all of their original teeth

Yet, I LOVE Wednesday nights so much. I dont need to take my kids out to some place fun. I am fun. I dont need to surround them with glamour. We are glamorous. I dont even like singing karaoke, I sound bad. But I always choose songs that make me smile and make people at the least tap their foot. So I cant see of feel any of the bad. I only smile and laugh and have fun.

Thank God I was able to hold my children close as we tried karaoke. Because of them supporting me, I was able to learn that happiness and fun were not something i needed to go find. They were something I needed to create. And I was able to create fun and pleasure in almost any environment. And I needed to depend on NO ONE to do it just right.