Remember, H is not your reason for being. Take him off that damn pedestal. He's not as wonderful as you have made him out to be in your own mind.
It's weird, because I remember thinking my ex-wife was the only one for me. I put her on that pedestal. She was perfect in my mind.
Now... when I see her, I feel absolutely NOTHING. I don't feel sad at all. In fact, she bores me and I have no attraction what so ever for her.
As time passes, and IF things don't work out with H, you will feel the same way about your H as I do with my ex-wife.
And you will think back and wonder "why in the hell was I such a mess over him???".
It's pretty crazy how that happens. And it will happen for you if he decides to not come home. It's scary to think about not caring about him anymore but when you actually don't care, it won;t matter anymore.
And IF H doesn't come home, you will meet a man. And you will fall head over heels in love with him. And he will make your H look like child's play. You will see qualities in this man that you H never had. And then you will wonder why you settled for H.
It will happen, Sparks. And when it does, I hope you let me know so I can say "TOLD YA!".
