Rednail- Me, Myself, and I

[mustardseed]

So far, no no one has filed or done anything. I have done research, talking to L's, everything I can to be prepared. I even have D papers on me in my house just so I have them.

Yeah, I really would like to save, move out as soon as I can. He says he is filling as soon as I get a job. I am currently waiting for my cna license to give me my test date. I have a under the table secret job no one knows about too but that is only a little bit of money right now.

Yeah I know if I made the agreement he could kick me out at anytime, which is why I told him I will not agree to anything unless it is written into the divorce. I will make sure ANY AND EVERY agreement is legal!

I am working on new set of boundaries for myself and hopefully a moving out plan. I know staying in the house is best financially for both of us but I just feel like I would never move on from him and be stuck kissing his booty as long as I lived here.

He called 5x, left 2 VM, and 1 text. I do not think it was important, the only thing he said was our daughter was cute in her dress, he asked for a photo the other day and just now replied about it and then both voicemail's said hey and hey when you get the chance call me back.

I can't be NC everyday because of the babies but I'm trying to be as NC as I can be. If he calls later I might answer since it takes like 5 minutes of effort to call from work but if not, then I'll answer tomorrow 1x.

To call from work he has to call 2 different people, have them call "his wife", and then be connected to my cell or house phone.

Still debating if he does if I should. I don't know.

I went and splurged at Victoria's Secret. 3 matching sets! My mom calls it my dating collection. All this new lingerie and matching sets no one will get to see but I have LOL.

Also, since he is in the house without you there trust that he is probably snooping. Keep anything you don't want him to find in an allies home or a file at work--including anything from the L.