Hi Sotto. Sorry to hear your up and down but it's to be expected with the threat of the D any time. I think you handle the sitch better than most and your grace and poise really come across in your posts. Your H is a berk and no matter how deep he is in his fog , some part of him knows what he's losing and maybe that's the reason for pet names Anyway that's way too much time given to his thinking
Stay strong and choose those social outings to suit you , plenty of time for eye candy !!!!!
