I would like you to understand that there is a difference between capacity (capability) for change and culpability for change.
Some aren't able to change, their personalities won't allow it, they have syndromes and disorders. Their personality is such that they can't recognisee their defects and overcome them, they are incapable of understanding they are flawed and can't change who they are. There are tools even to work on this using our higher spirit.
There are those who know they are flawed and just don't want any changes. They haven't accepted their own responsibility to change their behaviour, whilst being able to change are just plain stubborn or contrary. Then there is shift by their higher power, huge light bulb moments of realisation.
There are many like some of the DB posters here who are seeking the 'how' to make our lives different, how to become. I observe you to be in this group, and it's a good way to be.
We change our behaviour and work on ourselves and our personalities change. We emerge as one who is seen as changing and growing. We are powerful and a great force in this world.
Your WW will be in limmerance for up to two years before spell break occurs. I sense this is important. It truly is important for you to understand this takes time and a great deal of time to unravel. There is no guarantee that a new limmerance cycle won't start. A second OM. The first is usually affair down big time, so there will be spell break.
Stand and make your changes. You do this for you.
The letters are a powerful tool and will help you enormously to grow and develop. If you wish to share a way can be found.
V
Freedom is just another word for nothing left to loose. V 64, WAW