Still moving in a new direction

[mleigh4]

It's what you expect of yourself that counts. I like that Job, and it's exactly how I live my life these days, and probably why I am happier than I have been in a long time!

So, I talked with S more about a summer vacation together. The thought of leaving him with H, who will certainly need the help of Grammy, gives me anxiety! S didn't like the idea of that either. I know, I am a big baby, but knowing he will be miserable makes me miserable and will ruin my trip. It would work better when he is a bit older and he has his own phone!

So, he said, I hate vacations! Lol. I asked him why. He said, I like home. I said, well, what if I could find us a trip where we can bring dog with us? He thought for a moment, then said ok, as long as we don't go on an airplane or a cruise ship! I said deal! The plan? To park us in an oceanfront beach house for a few days. A perfect soul soother trip! I already have a place in mind I found in Malibu. If anyone has any ideas where to stay, let me know!

H and I have our first counseling session tomorrow. I wonder if he remembers? I wonder if he will show up? If he does, I plan on being pretty quiet. I have been wanting a peek in that mind of his for a long time. I can't wait to hear what he has to say!