I have been on my second round of faking detachment. Doing pretty good with it past 1 month. I hope that as I GAL, it will become real. I still have to GAL though. I went surfing a couple of times back when I was a teenager (I could never actually stand up though). Now I would be too afraid, but that is awesome that you did it!
I too have to accept that things are out of my hands. This has been difficult for me. The way you described choosing between being patient and trusting that your life will be ok versus anger and resentment really resonated with me. I have been so angry for so long. And you are right. It can lead to bad decisions. Was your choice a conscious choice, or something you would have to remind yourself of every time anger popped up?
I also related to your comment about rediscovering your fun, likeable side. I know it's there but I still haven't found mine.
Anyway, thank you once again for posting. I really do relate to your insights. You have a very clear and beautiful way of putting them into writing. Despite all you have gone through, you posts reveal an inner peace and calm. They are very valuable to me.
Me: 42 H: 43 Twins age 5 Physically Separated 7/2015
