(Terry Jones): I think she's dead.

[LoisB]

Episode Two of 'The Death of Mary, Queen of Scots,' can be heard on Radio Four almost immediately.

(Music, then the sound of saw cutting, and other violent sounds as before, with the woman screaming. Suddenly it is silent).

Man's Voice (Terry Jones): I think she's dead.

Woman's Voice: No I'm not!

Hey Guys :-)

It's been a bit. Had a situation today which I thought may enlighten folks in MLC-CrazyLand.

I needed to take a time out and collect myself. The last time I checked in, I was very raw and felt like every nerve ending was exposed. I'm sorry if I offended anyone. Honestly, I was very new to some big changes and felt a bit exposed and overly sensitive.

Anyway, things are going well and slowly falling into place. Job is going really well. They seem to really love me. I've been offered more hours. Still very active in my strict Debtor's Anonymous program and my financial life has calmed down by leaps and bounds. Still have a ways to go, but the program is working and I'm sticking to it.

So, for today... About a month or so ago, my oldest daughter, now 21, confided that she is smoking marijuana daily... yes, like her dad. I can't say I'm surprised and that was always what I suspected when she left NY. I knew that, if she had a problem with substances, heading back to the college campus would bring it to light.

Still painful, though, and brought up a lot of memories with Matt. Haven't heard from him in about a month. He has cut off contact with Louisa, now 13, completely. He hasn't seen her in almost two years, come May.

Well, with D21's confession of chronic marijuana use, I stepped way back. I'm very guarded with her and protective of what small, settled life Louisa and I have built. And, she has begun to spin a bit. She is feeling very alone and my mom and stepdad took the vehicle they helped her lease... once they found out, from me, that she is using again.

She hadn't paid on the car since they drove it from the lot. They had made the payments.

Cal is feeling very alone. So, she reached out to her grandmother. Matt's mom. I thought the reaction was really telling and illuminating, especially since I've had no contact with his family in more than two years.

The girls haven't seen their grandparents in 2.5 years. For Louisa, it may be more like 3.5. So, Cal sends a Facebook friendship request.

She hasn't seen her grandmother in two years and this was a family that used to worship my older daughter. They went on countless vacations, spent loads of time together... they were almost overly-involved in her life and I had to set some boundaries. At one point, my MIL said, "I wish we could just keep Cal and raise her."

So, Cal sends this request. An olive branch. They know nothing of her drug use. They just haven't seen their grand-daughter in a very long time and this is the response she received:

"Dear Callaway, With your friend request I feel there are questions that require answers. In the fall of 2013 you received 2 phone calls with messages and 2 texts from me (marked sent). I was inquiring about our shopping date over Thanksgiving break for a winter coat. Now, almost 2.5 years later I've received this request. Why? You took yourself out of our life. Why the change??????"

Cold much?

Maybe this is why Matt is who he is?

It really shook me up. After all this time, that's the response she gives a grandchild...

I'm still on guard with Cal, but I've repeated how much I love her probably more now than ever.

Just thought it was interesting in light of Matt's crisis, in light of many of the MLCs where Mom seems to be dominant, uncaring and lacking empathy.